When brad told me he just wanted to date someone that he could manipulate and control I realized that I have that urge a lot like an abnormal amount of the time I just want to be really controlling and manipulative and just control Ajax’s life that’s so fucked up I’m so fucked up
My entire fucking life I’ve been told to “get over it” or “suck it up” like
It’d be cool if people outside of my family didnt tell me this too…
I know I’m supposed to be the strong tough one but I’m done I’m sick of I’m allowed to be a fucking human being and be angry and sad and jealous and annoyed I’m allowed to feel dont tell me to “get over it” or to “suck it up” because ill punch you in the fucking jaw you piece of shit fuck you.
Don’t try to dismiss my fear and paranoia of being openly trans around my family just because society is more accepting of trans men than trans women when my dad is a transphobic piece of trash. More than half of my family members are ass backwards and close minded as fuck so don’t even TELL ME “stop being paranoid who cares if someone comes home and finds you in boy clothes”
Brad is the only friend I have and he’s an asshole and doesn’t believe genders outside of the binary are even real, he’s homophobic, transphobic, and I think it’s really sad that he’s like the only person who cares about my feelings most of the time